What's in my head?
I made this website thinking that I would post more on here, but we all get so caught up in our own lives and every other social media platform that I forget sometimes that this thing exists. I’m going to work on that more…kind of like how I'm working on myself.
So: What’s in my head? (besides the few white claws…)
Thursday night. Doing what I do best. Sitting on my computer listening to music. Decided to listen to a random playlist and fast forward the songs on it with my eyes closed. Boom. Ok, this song. Seeing if it means anything to me. All I know is I like the way it makes me feel… I hear the lyrics, “Good things come to those who wait.” I have no idea what this band is. But oh look, now it’s 11:11. Guess it’s a song I was supposed to hear, huh?
You can just call the repetitive sequence of 11:11, 1:11, etc something just from your subconscious. But I do not believe in that. This has been following me around at least the last ten years of my life. I believe when you see that number, you kind of just see how your life is going at that present moment. You think about what you're doing in the moment, and that's where you're supposed to be at that exact time. You are going in the right direction. Things are going as planned.
Sometimes I wish people would understand that there are no coincidences in life. That song you heard that was your deceased loved ones favorite, how the person in front of you at the store wore a shirt to the new job you were going to apply to tomorrow, that bird that won't stop following you around, that thing that you can't seem to get out of your head that all of a sudden happens? You get what I mean.
All I know is, a lot of stuff that may seem "weird" has happened to me throughout my life and continues to. I am a very spiritual person and it used to scare the sh*t out of me. When something that is “werid” happens to me now, I just go…. Oh, ok. Thanks for the sign! What ya got next Universe?
Look, I’m not saying everything is a “sign”, but sometimes you just have to open your eyes more.
I think once you realize you are more than just a human being. What you are composed of. Everything changes. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. Essentially we are light. And we all have souls. The ego can be the bullshit part of us. The universe will always be in your favor once you accept it and decide you want to raise your vibration. Positive things = higher vibrations. Negative things= lower vibrations. To sum it up, easily. You attract what you radiate. But you also have to heal your inner demons, too.
I could type and type and type of all of the crazy things that happen to me, but maybe that will be my next post. Kind of like how I almost got in a car accident a few months ago and the night before I found a mysterious beautiful white feather laying on my floor.
Yeah, so now that I’m rambling I guess I’ll just keep going. Back in March, right when the pandemic began I felt sick to my stomach when I realized what was going on. I never experienced something like this in my life, as you haven’t either. I couldn’t leave my room. I wouldn’t leave my bed. Full of fear. Freaked out. Couldn’t get off of the phone. It was a full day of "WTF?"
I was so scared. Then I heard this owl.. and I knew everything was going to be ok. It was so loud and calming. There's a story about my Grandpa and the owl, but I'll get into that another time, maybe-
So next morning, I find this white beautiful feather. Confused. I have no feathers in my house. An angel? You could say that.
The next day I was driving to the radio station, and lost control of my breaks. They went out. I don’t know how I did not crash into the car in front of me. The breaks went out. And for about 15 seconds I thought I was done. Doom, goodbye! but I wasn’t.. I somethow ended up in a dirt lot, shaking.
But I was ok. That feather. Protected me. I was protected.
I came home. No accident. Just a pain in the ass deal with my car getting towed.
Come home. Got something in the mail saying that my air bags are so old and they may have not worked..
So. there's that.
Owl warned me. White feather in my room. Letter from Honda... Come on..
All I have to say is life may not always be the best, but open your eyes.
Oh my.. I just remembered. I had a dream the night before that I almost got in a car accident.
I think you get my point.